Post 14

Your recovery is speeding up Rul. Azrul sudah mula makan bubur sikit, atupun kena suapkan. Every Umi dan Wafi lawat Azrul, same goes to you family, Fadil and your band mates. Semalam, Azrul tatap mata Umi, nda lepas tatap mata Umi, but you didn't say any word Rul. Umi suapkan Azrul sedikit bubur semalam and I'm glad Azrul mau makan. I hope you're not mad at me anymore Rul. Lately ani Wafi pun getting better, inda lagi banyak query. I think he's beginning to understand how wonderful is our friendship Rul, walaupun Umi tau dan Wafi tau Azrul harapkan more than just friends.

Umi harap Azrul masih dapat terima Umi as a friend. I just don't want to hurt you Rul, you are just too kind to be hurt. I feel happy Azrul mau terima masa Umi suapkan bubur kemulut Azrul. I thought you'd never want to look at me again. But I feel thankful. Please get well soon Rul.

Love
Umi

Post 13

Lama Umi inda update blog Rul. Been busy, and for the past few days Umi was beside Azrul di hospital. Walaupun Fadil larang Umi ke hospital but I did jua Rul. I just want to see you. Azrul masih belum dapat bercakap and Azrul masih belum mahu lihat muka Umi. As if macam Umi inda exist dihadapan Azrul. But Umi terima Rul, I know Umi selalu sakitkan hati Azrul, mungkin ani balasan Umi. Umi harap satu hari Azrul akan mau terima Umi as a friend macam sediakala.

Azrul masih terlantar, belum dapat duduk, belum dapat bangun. Makan pun belum, only fed through tubes and menghirup air. Apart from your family, Fadil masih tetap setia melawat Azrul setiap hari. And also your band members Sham, Eddie dan Dani. Umi rindu dengar suara Azrul nyanyi dan main gitar. Get well soon Rul, supaya Azrul dapat beraksi semula, Umi mau lihat Azrul jamming macam dulu-dulu.

Umi masih ingat the first time Umi bawa Wafi ke garage Azrul tempat Azrul and band selalu jamming. That was the first time Azrul jumpa Wafi. I know I was wrong Rul, I know I am stupid. Umi tahu how Azrul feel towards me but Umi masih macam sengaja bawa Wafi kesana. Entah I dunno what was I thinking, Umi kejam kan Rul, Umi inda ada hati dan perasaan, Umi inda menjaga hati Azrul even though as a friend. Umi ingat that night Azrul and band main lagu Pupus made famous by Dewa. Umi tau Azrul sengaja main that song and dedicated that song to me. Azrul sang it penuh perasaan. I'm sorry Rul, Umi tau Azrul fed up with Umi. If Azrul should never want to talk to me again, I understand Rul, but for me, you will always be my friend

Love
Umi

Post 12

Hari ni Fadil gitau Umi yang Azrul sudah keluar from ICU and transferred to ward biasa. No longer on wires but masih lagi on drip coz Azrul need liquid. Azrul masih belum dapat angkat kepala or duduk, becakap pun masih belum dapat. I feel happy Rul. Thank God, Azrul recovery is speeding up, walaupun I still feel sad Azrul inda mau pandang muka Umi. I know you don't want to see me coz I always hurt you Rul.

I really want to see you Rul, but I don't want to hurt you by showing my face. Fadil understands the whole situation thats why ia inda suruh Umi lawat Azrul for the time being. I miss you Rul. No matter how Wafi cuba hiburkan hati Umi, tapi I can't stop thinking of you and what I have done to you before Rul.

I hope you will still accept me as a friend Rul.

Love
Umi

Post 11

I'm back home, Rul. Barutah Umi update this blog, I've been crying for the past few days, now pun masih bangkung my eyes Rul. I feel so depressed and guilty for everything that I have done to you. Last week when I reached home, I straight away called Fadil and he said Azrul sadar sudah, walaupun masih alum becakap, but Azrul sudah mula buka mata and look at people. And thank God, Azrul masih ingat dan kenal orang2 yang lawat Azrul walaupun respond dengan angguk or geleng saja.

Umi rushed to hospital to visit Azrul. I was so happy and excited to see you Rul. On the way to hospital, Umi senyum saja. But sampai di hospital, I suddenly felt sad and guilty Rul. The moment Azrul nampak Umi, Azrul palingkan muka dari Umi, Azrul tutup mata and tears fell from you eyes. Umi tau Umi selalu hurt you Rul sampai Azrul inda mau lihat muka Umi lagi. Rul, Umi minta ampun dan maaf Rul, I know a day before Azrul accident pun Umi sakitkan hati Azrul. Please forgive me.

Umi inda tau kan buat apa Rul, I wanted to see you and visit you but Fadil cakap jangan tah dulu. I miss you Rul. I just wanna be by your side and see you recover.

Love
Umi

Post 10

Hi Rul, Umi masih di KK, tomorrow will begin the journey home. Fadil said Azrul sudah mula buka mata slowly and sudah mula responding when nama Azrul dipanggil. I feel so happy Rul, I can't wait to see you once I return.

I can't write much Rul, internet connection disini so slow. Just wanna leave a note saja.

Love
Umi

Post 9

Hi Azrul, Umi masani di KK, it was a long trip yesterday, how I wish we traveled on an airplane. But well, Umi di KK sudah and now updating this blog from a cybercafe. I miss you Rul, I wonder how are you doing right now. Yesterday before tolak ke KK, Umi and Wafi ke hospital jap tengok Azrul. Azrul was sleeping, your mommy said Azrul belum fully sedar walaupun sudah mula gerakkan kepala & tangan.

And tadi Fadil text me, I am so happy to hear now Azrul is show more improvement, sudah mula buka mata sikit although masih between sedar & inda sedar. But at least it made me happy Rul. And I'm hoping to see Azrul in full consciousness once Umi return nanti. I can't wait to see you smile Rul, I know Azrul will smile when you see my face as always. Umi mau cium tangan Azrul, Umi banyak dosa arah Azrul, Umi mau minta maaf for hurting you always Rul. I just don't want to lose you coz you're my one and only best friend.

I can't be long Rul, mummy kan bawa shopping.

Love
Umi

Post 8

The moment Umi dapat message from Fadil, terus Umi rush ke hospital. Fadil gave me some good news, he said Azrul sudah mula gerakkan kepala dan tangan. I felt so happy, Azrul's condition mula nampakkan improvement. Umi text Wafi to let him know that I'm going to hospital and he only replied, 'Bah'. Well, lantak lah apa Wafi mau fikir. Umi masih upset with him after what he said yesterday. Now yang penting Umi mau Azrul sihat.

Sampai di ICU, Fadil bawa Umi masuk dalam ward while your mum and sis gave way to us. Daddy Azrul masih by your bedside, biasalah only 3 person allowed at one time. Yup Azrul mula pusingkan kepala kekiri dan kanan and at times trying to lift your hands, tapi Azrul masih belum sadar, but kadang2 Azrul groaning saja. Please get well soon Rul, please open your eyes. Please look at me, Umi setia tunggu Azrul. Please Rul, I don't want to hurt you anymore.

The rest of the day, my heart is full of hope. Umi rasa happy Azrul mula nampakkan signs of recovery. Fadil pun ceria semacam sja tadi. Wafi pun somehow nice to Umi today, maybe he felt guilty of what he said yesterday. Umi told him about Azrul's improvement and he said "Ah okay, that's good to hear." Umi inda tau if he was sincere or was just trying to ambil hati Umi. But at least Wafi tried to understand Umi, but Umi tau he's always jealous for you Rul.

Oh ya, Umi tomorrow have to go to KK Rul, Azrul pun tau kan Umi sudah plan this trip a long time ago with family. Mummy Umi ada plang cakap if Umi want to stay home, she don't mind. At least dapat lawat Azrul. Yes at first memang Umi thought of cancelling the trip, tapi Umi kesian my parents. They've been looking forward for this trip so I guess Umi just go for a while ok Rul. Lagipun Fadil promised to text Umi to update on Azrul's condition. Please get well soon Rul.

Love
Umi